Having bulled his way into a dedication of sitting next to Julian at the next state dinner, Ivan planned to arrive at dinner first. His intention was to secure a position as close to the king as possible, and reserve a position for Julian to his side.
Intended justifications include a regalement of the recent combat, and how arduous the raquetball game went, with a definition of courage Julian would likely find annoying. “I’ve fought hundreds of cowards. They act out of cowardace. I seek them out, and they run. Some try to fight, ‘cause they hope they can maybe get away. None have been courageous though. But courage, true courage is something you’ve yet to demonstrate here, Julian. When is the last time you found yourself in a conflict, staring your opponent in the face, with absolutely no chance of winning. And yet, pressed forth. Not because you had no choice, but for a purpose? Some might call that foolish, true. Others may call that courageous, or even heroic.”
Intending fully to gain favor with Benedict by slighting Julian, Ivan’s intention was to gain permission to see the pattern room again. At which point, he would slit his wrists and bleed upon the pattern. He’s bought into the theory that this pattern is false, and is willing to do what it takes to make things right. To be the hero he’s always longed to be.